Another meatless friday...

So my cravings have been growing more and more. But i've noticed that, for the most part, they are totally different everyday...except for the mozz sticks cravings, those are quite often. Today, for instance, i wanted peaches, mozz sticks, salad, queso dip (from ruby tuesdays), popcorn, candy cakes, pizza, a burger, steak and shrimp, cupcakes, ice cream...needless to say i didn't eat them all.

I have been feeling a bit better though, symptom wise. I haven't been as sick , my boobs aren't as sore, and i am SLIGHTLY less tired. I'm not worried, i'm just thankful. I know that sounds weird, but it's true. I can tell, though, that it's getting harder to run. That is the hardest thing for me. I have only gained 4lbs so far, and it feels like i am carrying sandbags with me when i run. I can still make it, it just seems...harder. I hope i can make it pretty far into this whole thing before i have to stop all together. I know the dog will be as upset as i am!

It ain't nuttin but a chicken wing...

So, tonight was the first time i have had wings since i found out i'm pregnant. Those of you that know me know that i love my hot wings, and tonight a few of us went to the Wayside and i had wings. I also had mozzarella sticks. I have been craving mozzarella sticks for a few days now, i just can't seem to get enough. I often wonder why i can't crave something more healthy...like fruits, vegetables, soup, salad, SOMETHING! Keep in mind, i'm only complaining a little bit because i have always loved mozzarella sticks :)

My aunt bought me a baby present today...it was a baby book...our first baby book. It is the cutest thing! I can't wait to start filling it out...i am going to wait till a day when i know my handwriting is presentable, so my child doesn't think i'm a messy slob..lol.

I'm starting to get a little belly too. I was hoping that it would take longer to show than 8 weeks, but i guess you can't hope for too much all at once. Hopefully the belly will stay "under control" for a while longer yet. I haven't been eating much more than usual..depends on the day. Some days i eat the same as usual, some days i eat a bit less, some days i eat a bit more. Not that i'm trying to diet or anything, but i'm hoping to keep my weight under control too. I want to gain enough weight, but i don't want to go overboard. Like so many books and boards say, you're NOT REALLY eating for two, even though you feel like it.

It's officially official

It's officially official now, we have told our families about the baby. It went as well as i had hoped. I am kind of glad that it's over and we don't have to hide it anymore, but i'm still not totally relaxed because we aren't totally out in the clear yet...there are still 4 more weeks till then (the 12th week, so they say).

I still have the mild nausea if i don't eat enough or if i eat too much. I'm still really really tired pretty much all day long too. I'm hoping that will all end with the first trimester. We called and made appointments for our "childbirth" classes...can't wait for those. No, seriously, i really can't wait. I think they will be fun. All except for the part where you have to watch the actual childbirth process...that's a bit much for me i think, i'd rather just go in blind i think.

I haven't really had all too many cravings for anything unusual. Sometimes when i see a commercial, or i smell food, i get really hungry for it...other than that, not too much. There is the constant craving for soda, but that could be because i gave it up totally for lent...that never helps.

It's alive...it's ALIVE

Well, i had my first actual doctors appointment today. Frank went with me since he had off today. To start with, i had to have blood taken, and apparently my veins were tiny today, cuz it hurt like heck and it took forever! They took 6 whole vials of blood, so i hope that's enough, lol. Then, they were like "We could use a urine sample", to which i was like, crap i peed before i left! So needless to say, i went into the bathroom and sat there for a few minutes until i could squeeze out some pee (sorry, TMI). Then it was time for "the room". We sat there for 30min...30min!! Then the doctor came in and we went through the typical questions (so i'm told)...does anyone in your family have this disease, does anyone in your family have that disease, do you smoke, do you drink, etc etc etc. Then, it was time...for my u/s!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I saw my baby today! It was, by far, the best thing i've ever seen in my whole life! Even though it only looks like a little bean right now, i saw it big and clear. And i heard the heartbeat...loud and clear. It was fast. It was amazing. I could see it as i heard it. It was the most wonderful sound i've ever heard! I started to cry, then i looked over to tell Frank that "that's our baby" and he was crying too. It really made it real. It was the most amazing thing to ever happen to me....EVER!

This is my baby...baby pa-que (yes, that's what we call our little bean for now...we're weird like that)

I will never forget this day, ever. This has been the most amazing thing to ever happen to me! I am going to be a mom!

I want it, but i can't have it!

So these past few days, i have been practically starving! But everytime i eat more than a few bites, i feel like i could throw up. This mild nausea stuff is really killing me! Maybe this is why you lose weight in the first few months of pregnancy.

I have also been so tired i could just lay on the couch all day and not move. I have been trying to run every morning, and it seems to help me later in the day, but it doesn't so much help in the morning. I'm not really sure WHAT will help me feel better, aside from the first 3 months being over with. It doesn't help that i fall asleep really easily, then i wake up a few times every night and sometimes it's hard to get back to sleep. I have also been having some very weird dreams...not that i never had weird dreams or anything, but these have been kinda excessive.

We have our first doctor's appointment tomorrow, and we're hoping to get our first baby picture! We're also hoping that we can hear the heartbeat, or at least the doctor can hear it. I think that all of that will help make this all a bit more real, not that the nausea and the extreme fatigue and bloating isn't a good indicator...i guess you just have to be in this position to know what i mean. The reassurance will be relaxing.

P.S. I love you...

I have been seriously slacking on the posts lately, but we have been very busy bees.

Yesterday, we went to the "Cinema & Drafthouse", and we saw P.S. I love you. It was a good movie, definately sweet and touching. I don't know if it was my emotions, which are on high alert, or just that it was that good of a movie, but i wanted to cry like 6 times!

I have realized now that what i have MUST be the morning sickness i have been craving so badly. I have this mild nausea pretty much all day long. It comes mostly in the afternoon between lunch and dinner, when i haven't eaten in a few hours. Then, when i do eat, i don't feel as good as i hoped i would. All i want to do is eat like i normally do, but i can't seem to! I feel like i am eating less, but gaining weight. I feel very bloated, like a whale. Frank says i don't look any different, but i sure do feel different.

I am more tired than ever lately. I wake up and i'm tired, i go for a run and i'm tired, i get a shower and i'm tired, i make lunch and i'm tired, i lay on the couch and i'm tired...pretty much, i'm ALWAYS tired! It doesn't really go away. It's not usually the "man, i just want to go to sleep" tired, it's more of the "i just got home from a long strenous day and my whole body just wants to sit down and not get up for a few hours" kind of tired. I can't wait for the 3rd month, when i won't be as dead to the world. Thank God my long late nights are over at work!

One last thing, i had the baby's room totally done (note, i said HAD). Well, i got the bright idea to make a "fence" around the whole room, like a border on the bottom of the walls. I know you won't see it pretty much anywhere, but you may be able to see it a bit and it looks really cute. So i've been in there drawing the fence, and Frank helped me paint it white. Now, i just have to put the highlights on each individual board. I'm hoping for a snow day so i can get that done..i think it'll be a few hour, if not whole day, thing. I can say this though, i am glad that i had just about all of it done before hand. I think the baby will love it in there, i can't wait!

Happy Valentine's Day!

I start my post today by saying Happy Valentine's Day to everyone! I hope everyone has a great evening of wine, dine and romance. Frank and i decided that we weren't going to do anything this Valentine's day, just a card and dinner...the basics. Well, we woke up and opened cards, and when i got home from work we went to dinner at Ghezzi's (it's become sort-of a tradition for us). Well, when we got there and sat down, the waitress brought a dozen roses out to our table. I was so shocked, he had arranged flowers for me all along! He is so thoughtful and romantic sometimes. Now, i am full and tired...a good combination for Valentine's night, lol.
Now, the bad part of my day. This morning. I have been waking up maybe once or twice a night to pee. Yesterday morning and this morning, when i wake up, i feel a bit nauseated. So when i woke up my second time this morning around 7am, i wasn't shocked. I had that "not right" feeling on my way to the bathroom, but didn't think twice about it. I walked into the bathroom and was practically assaulted by a pain/ache in my stomach. Its that pain that you don't know whether it will turn into a vomit session or a poop session (sorry about the TMI, it only gets better from here). I sat down on the toilet (with the seat down so i was on top of it), and just leaned forward hoping the pain/ache would go away. My stomach was rippling like it does when you are puking (TMI again), but it wasn't that violent because i wasn't actually being sick. I ended up laying on the floor, hoping i would feel better. I started to sweat then, i felt that bad! It took 20min before i felt better enough to go back to bed. Then when i woke up, i felt better. It was so weird! I have started, today, to feel the mild nausea that everyone keeps talking about. I hope this is as bad as it gets...and i hope i don't have another episode like i did this morning.